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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kv21sA0QA94 you know what's most amazing is that overall, it seems like she feels like her primary role is as 'friend,' first. (how do i become a good friend ((good news)) to my parents?) // show capable, independent pre-visit obligated, but also really wants to. makes big plans to get closer, intimate conversations but then-- gets home, everyone has their own lives, lots of group texts i'll never be in. (even forgetting the ones i am in) i'm the pet, waiting for everyone to get home from work. i'm also able to catch up with people too and focus on being a good friend (versus entertaining). cancer, but wasn't really there. the best you can do is take care of yourself there. (really? is that all there is?) (flashbacks: growing up scared, strict. like infinitely polar bear?) contrast to little sister's different experience of parents. and it is about them meeting jesus that is the difference, with all those bumps and warts. -- wanting us to all get baptized together, but i needed to establish me. i've always needed to establish me, either as clown, or as a leader. still under that control tho, right?) i'm a person of extremes, finding my way by committing full speed, but is it the right thing? my experience with faith and doubt and certainty and mystery. (how do i become a good friend ((good news)) to my parents?) gifts (let us know before you buy things now) versus experiences. also, reflective: you really did have a hard experience, didn't you? they always seem to know me even when i haven't really talked about my day-to-day for years. a decade, almost. LEARNING TO TAKE THINGS SERIOUSLY safety net has always been there no matter how "i can do it myself" i get... (the people around me spend so much time being the same! trying to disappear versus knowing your place but i could just have easily been born somewhere else. my parents picked a life away from theirs, too. i wonder what the holidays are like for them?) sacrificed being with her mom to be here, and yet "every day is like a holiday." she's grateful for health. // as i grow: interested in all aspects of the industry, starting with casting (people) and then ultimately probably directing, right? GULP, dances around it. but it's also relevant, or constant, how people see you versus how you feel as a minority. then also a rebellious view of authority... // also developing a sense of your own point of view. writers' groups like bad auditions? HMM "what are you watching?" and getting recommendations and how weird it is to hear all this from a solidly internal person // a "Plan A" assistant // started at 25, lots of interns are 18. so dating is dot dot dot sports = connection with body // the selfishness of love versus "we love because he first loved us." // the "why do you hate me?!" thanksgiving // parents are thoughtful about not knowing how to relate to kids (not their world). "parents are really good roommates"