every so often given time and bandwidth but also the collar-stretching feeling that i see the appeal of being so comfortable doing all the things i'd naturally want and make time to do but that's not at all the person i want to stay being forever, i go on a spree in which i say yes to every opportunity presented. this year it turned out i had four months of availability (yes i understand this is a matter of privilege and living in a very large city and it's very reasonable to say i have not always been a reasonably responsible adult). some stuff i got to do as a result: -pet a wolf -turned online friends into irl friends -traveled to my mother's motherland and got around by myself* (*okay, with sister) -finished the second act of my life in country music (when i was in high school i had this online life where i ran a country music news website for like two and a half years) -found another corner of the world i can actually see myself living in and it is northeast arkansas (!!) and i'm just typing more words right now because this is so rare and lovely a gift i could actually cry -continued my reign of terror in which i force the movie "short term 12" on others -went on some gd dates -this country is more than half women and we are going to live in this reality because reality is your friend. also next year - NEXT YEAR - latinx friends will be the majority in this here state and let's live like this too.