sometimes, my favorite word is "okay!" and that gets me into trouble. (to help define it, let's use it in a sentence: "hey steph, wanna go to chevys?" "okay!" *drops ten-page paper due the next day*... to verbify it, i'll borrow from my housemate maria: "chasing fun". as in, "steph, are you chasing fun AGAIN?!" "eeep...")
it means the absence of "no." that means i dont set boundaries. that means i can't be a good steward of my time. it's such a lie that if you're not doing anything you are wasting your time. stretch. breathe. listen. savor. they are relatively motionless activities, but this does not mean the absence of meaningful experience. it is a hurry sickness we buy into, this idea of having to be up and about to be productive. it is one sign of our succumbing to a heavily visual culture - to have to have something tangible accomplished before we call it a done day, before we can even think of terming ourselves successful in anything. it takes away from the work of the heart, which we cannot see, which is the standard by which God weighs our character.
it traces back to where we find our worth. what is this idea of frantically "making" the "best" of our time? being able to 'make' it implies that it is a creation of our own, that we have control over it. ha! the plans we forge, the agendas we shape, all must be guided to work. Proverbs 16:9: "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps;" Jeremiah 10:23: "I know, O LORD, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps," both attributing to the will of God having the final say. All our plans will never work if it is not to his satisfaction.
mm. which brings me to dependency and independence. next time. im sleepy.
... steph is up to something. heheheheehe. ahh the frustration of keeping a secret.
it means the absence of "no." that means i dont set boundaries. that means i can't be a good steward of my time. it's such a lie that if you're not doing anything you are wasting your time. stretch. breathe. listen. savor. they are relatively motionless activities, but this does not mean the absence of meaningful experience. it is a hurry sickness we buy into, this idea of having to be up and about to be productive. it is one sign of our succumbing to a heavily visual culture - to have to have something tangible accomplished before we call it a done day, before we can even think of terming ourselves successful in anything. it takes away from the work of the heart, which we cannot see, which is the standard by which God weighs our character.
it traces back to where we find our worth. what is this idea of frantically "making" the "best" of our time? being able to 'make' it implies that it is a creation of our own, that we have control over it. ha! the plans we forge, the agendas we shape, all must be guided to work. Proverbs 16:9: "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps;" Jeremiah 10:23: "I know, O LORD, that a man's life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps," both attributing to the will of God having the final say. All our plans will never work if it is not to his satisfaction.
mm. which brings me to dependency and independence. next time. im sleepy.
... steph is up to something. heheheheehe. ahh the frustration of keeping a secret.
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