dude, "what i really meant to say" kicks so much ass. i didn't think i'd come to love it so much after hearing it the first couple of times - i was a little judgmental of the slightly repetitive lyrics (not in the song...just for music in general), not to mention the theme...but i'm a goner now. what a great song. probably another one i'll start a short story on that turns out really long, and then i run out of gas right in the middle. grrr...(I've done this for Melodie Crittenden's "Broken Road", Deana Carter's "Strawberry Wine," Phil Vassar's "Rose Bouquet," Tim McGraw's "Everywhere," and a couple other ones...btw, all the songs above are highly, highly recommended. go check them out.)

i was just thinking...who is the target audience for this blog? who am i really writing for when i write here? it's such a great form of catharsis, being able to write out what i'm thinking, how i'm feeling, how my day has gone. it's where i can be weird and crazy and just completely off-the-wall (and, of course, blogger also comes with the ability to edit my posts later if i go back and go "what the hell...", haha, but i don't think i'll be using that handy feature), and serious and boring all at the same time. this is basically entertainment for myself. who am i kidding...who's reading my blog anyhow? who hasn't stumbled upon it just because it's the only thing on my domain right now? i don't know...correct/forgive me if i sound a little bitter right now, it's not intentional. i'm just going through a meltdown right here at home...and the door next to my comp that keeps slamming shut due to the lovely summer breeze that's going through my house right now is DRIVING ME CRAZY..........

(yes, i am completely sane. last time i checked, at least. ;)

oh...to whoever reads this blog, thanks. really. i started doing this because i thought it'd be fun to utilize this direct-post thingy, and now it's becoming almost a habit. it's funny how you get attached to the smallest things and look back later and marvel at how you were able to function without it. heh.

so...i was driven home tonight by a close friend of mine, and we are quite similar in ages. of course, this rekindled my desire to learn to drive...not because i crave speed or anything (at least, not yet, haha), but just because i love the idea of being able to go wherever i want, whenever i want, on my own time, you know? i really want that sense of freedom, the luxury to be me. it sounds quite farfetched that to be complete i need a car, but that's putting it very explicity. basically, i just want to be able to go places on my own power. does that sound unreasonable? i don't know.

so...i've set up both songspy and audiogalaxy in place of napster (*moment of silence*), and i love the interface / design of songspy but really, really love the speed on audiogalaxy so far, haha. (thanks for putting up with all my stupid questions, amanda! ;) so...we'll see which one turns out victorious on my comp, which, of course, will kill my hard drive...lol, not really. i still have a few gigs left in this thing :o)

i actually went shopping voluntarily today, haha. bought a few shirts (that i absolutely LOVE), a cd single (which i'm listening to right now), and some other stuff. this is the longest entry i've posted, so...yep. just thought i'd point that out (you know, because it isn't readily obvious).

steph is listening to : cyndi thomson - what i really meant to say (another great country singer-songwriter i'm getting hooked on...right after sara evans, carolyn dawn johnson & melodie crittenden, of course ;)
20 more days until my "Girls Night Out" concert! [ reba mcentire, martina mcbride, jamie o'neal, sara evans & carolyn dawn johnson - yayyyy!! ]

thought : "There may be many fish in the sea, but I'm not a good fisherman."

"i hate to wake you up, to say goodbye..."
does anyone know who originally sang this song? ("Leaving On A Jet Plane")?

holy pigs in heaven (no, i don't really say that :PP) !! my relatives just came from taiwan and they got me 11 CDs!! wow!

i got some sugar ray, goo goo dolls, sarah mclachlan and a lot of bryan adams ;) *jumps up and down* haha - again, wow. i really don't know what to say, it's really incredible. this is their first visit to the U.S., and i'm going to do the best i can to make them welcome...

and ten minutes later, the novelty has yet to wear off. (kind of sad, isn't it? ;)

you know what? jude law is sexy.

so, um, all right. will i go psycho like certain people i know and blog all day? or be like other certain people *cough* who never blog at all? only time will tell.
steph is listening to : destiny's child - emotion & nine days - absolutely (story of a girl) (acoustic) on winamp.