psalm 63

My Soul Thirsts for You
A Psalm of David, when he was in the wilderness of Judah.

63:1 O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you;
my flesh faints for you,
as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
2 So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary,
beholding your power and glory.
3 Because your steadfast love is better than life,
my lips will praise you.
4 So I will bless you as long as I live;
in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 My soul will be satisfied as with fat and rich food,
and my mouth will praise you with joyful lips,
6 when I remember you upon my bed,
and meditate on you in the watches of the night;
7 for you have been my help,
and in the shadow of your wings I will sing for joy.
8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

9 But those who seek to destroy my life
shall go down into the depths of the earth;
10 they shall be given over to the power of the sword;
they shall be a portion for jackals.
11 But the king shall rejoice in God;
all who swear by him shall exult,
for the mouths of liars will be stopped.

a famous painter arrives in heaven

"How soon do you think I could begin painting?" [he] asked.

The Spirit broke into laughter. "Don't you see you'll never paint at all if that's what you're thinking about?" he said.

"What do you mean?" asked the Ghost.

"Why, if you are interested in the country only for the sake of painting it, you'll never learn to see the country. ... Light itself was your first love: you loved paint only as a means of telling about light."

The Great Divorce by C.S. Lewis

also, awww

commentary:

Besides, the bigger part of that story was what he did when he found out - he ran to tell Tyra. It reminds me of the Mad About You episode where (in a flashback before they were married) Paul was going for his annual New Year's walk or something alone and didn't want Jamie (I think that was Helen Hunt's character) to come with him. They got in a fight and he just left - but when he came back she asked it how it was.

He replied that the thing that kept happening was that every time some thought occurred to him, he wanted to tell her about it, but she wasn't there. And that's how he knew he wanted to marry her. When you really care about someone, when something big happens in your life, the first thing you want to do is tell them and share it with them.

For Landry, the most exciting thing about getting to play was that he was going to tell Tyra and she was going to be excited for him and that was almost better than actually getting to play. I mean, what's better than having someone you care about get genuinely excited and happy for you?

Of course, Tyra was busy, which knocked him off his high perch - but that outcome didn't even occur to him as he was running in the door to tell her. And it's not like we needed to learn that Landry likes her, but it still was a good moment over on my side of the screen.

hopefully i can transcribe tyra's mom encouraging her to embrace being "surprising" next

if this doesnt make you cry you probably have no heart

Two years ago, I was afraid of wanting anything. I figured wanting would lead to trying, and trying would lead to failure.

But now I find I cant stop wanting. I wanna fly somewhere first class. I wanna travel to Europe on a business trip. I wanna get invited to the White House. I wanna learn about the world. I wanna surprise myself. I wanna be important. I wanna be the best person i could be.

I wanna define myself, instead of having others define me. I wanna win and have people be happy for me. I wanna lose and get over it. I wanna not be afraid of the unknown.

i wanna grow up to be generous and big hearted, the way that people have been with me.

i want an interesting and surprising life.

It's not that I think i'm gonna get all these things, I just want the possibility of getting them. College represents possibility. The possibility that things are gonna change... i can't wait.

shawn mcdonald, "all i need"

As I sit here and think
About all that You've done
About how You gave me Your one and only Son
And I'm trying to fathom
All that You are, but so far, Lord
You're so beyond me

I fall down in reverence
And I fall down in fear
And I'm asking You, Lord, won't You please draw near
Won't You open my eyes
So that I can see
The way that You are working in me

All I need is Your love
To come and fill this heart of mine
My heart is a desert that has gone dry
And I need Your love to carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye, bye, bye, bye, bye
To carry me bye

And I lay down my life
And I put it before You
All that I am is in Your hands
And I'm not going to question, why You're so faithful
Why that You give me the blessing that You have

Let the glory be known, let the glory be shown
Lift You up unto the throne
You are my God, You are my King
To You I give, I give You everything
All that I need is Your love, my God

bones' answering machine message

"technically, you have not reached temperance brennan. but if you leave a message, it will reach her - me - temperance brennan."

:)

hahaha! bones s03e13

(4:07-4:38)

dad: no offense, but i would feel better if the famous dr. brennan was my scientific mouthpiece.

russ: have you done this before?

brennan: this is not clark's first trial.

dad: oh, he's a full grown scientist.

clark: i shave, sir. i have a drivers license. i've won a couple of fistfights. i saved a life. i've lain with women. i've been hustled at pool. i've defied my father's wishes. i have broken hearts and i have been heartbroken.
so by all the markers of this society, i am a grown man.

max: wow. [pause] you've lain with women?

and this is nerdy interesting :)

"baby mama" = english or jamaican-creole?

silence

In that moment I prayed, asking God for His wisdom and help to save me from myself. God answered my prayer and reminded me that Jesus often took periods of prayerful silence to hear from the Father and to ensure not that He was doing everything He could, but that He was doing only what was most important. For example, before beginning His public ministry, Jesus spent forty days fasting from food, people, and noise in an effort to prepare Himself to fully accomplish what God the Father had given Him to do on the earth.

Moreover, the Bible says in Luke 5:16 that “Jesus often withdrew to lonely places.” Jesus spent considerable time alone in silence to pray, rest, and focus on what priorities He should be devoting His time and energy to. This helps to explain why, in just three short years of ministry, Jesus had a greater impact on history than anyone else who has ever lived.

The Bible also describes multiple benefits of purposeful silence, including:

* hearing from God (1 Kings 19:11–13)
* waiting patiently for the Lord to act (Lamentations 3:25–28)
* worshiping God (Habakkuk 2:20)
* knowing God better (Psalm 46:10)
* praying effectively (Luke 5:16)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

new year, new place!