the kind of behind-the-scenes look i love - on bob costas: http://www.sportsonearth.com/article/40001770/

i like being me more than i like being anyone else. but i'm not future me yet. (wow: When you need to work out an ethical problem, take the decision that you would like your children to take. (Avoid doing things you wouldn't want to explain to your kids.) http://ask.metafilter.com/224101/25-am-I-ready-for-you

AT THE SAME TIME, PLEASE KNOW THIS COLUMN IS NOT MEANT TO BE SOME AUTHORITARIAN RANT ON HULK'S PART. IT IS MEANT TO BE HELPFUL. NOTHING MORE. NOTHING LESS. THE MOTIVES FOR WRITING IT ARE BORN FROM A GENUINE SENSE OF CAMARADERIE, FROM KNOWING THE SAME STRUGGLE THAT ALL WRITERS GO THROUGH. AND IF YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH THAT STRUGGLE THEN YOU KNOW THAT IT IS SHAM FOR ANY WRITER TO REPRESENT THEMSELVES AS AN AUTHORITY. THERE IS ONLY THE LONESOME STRUGGLE TO EXECUTE ONE'S IDEAS. IT IS CONSTANT, PERVASIVE, AND EVER-LASTING. HULK BELIEVES THIS STRUGGLE IS TOUGH ON WRITERS. IT MAKES FOR A SOLITARY LIFE. AND TRYING BATTLES WITH ONES OWN MIND. IT FOSTERS A SOLIPSISTIC SENSE OF INDEPENDENCE, WHICH CAN ALSO BREED CONTEMPT. SO AS MUCH AS ANYTHING, HULK WRITES ESSAYS LIKE THIS IN AN ATTEMPT TO CONNECT. TO SHARE. TO NOT FEEL LIKE WE ARE SO ALONE IN THE PURSUIT. ... PARENTS TRY TO TEACH THEIR CHILDREN WHAT TO DO. TEACHERS INSTRUCT PUPILS. ELDERS TALK TO YOUNGINS. THEY CAN ALWAYS SAY "DO THIS!" OR "DO THAT!" BUT BY TELLING THE STORY THEY CAN CONVEY SO MUCH MORE THAN MERE INSTRUCTION. THEY CONVEY MEANING. CONSEQUENCE. ACTION. INACTION. PURPOSE. IT'S ALL THERE. NARRATIVES MEAN SO MUCH TO OUR CULTURE, NOT JUST BECAUSE THEY INVOKE A BASIC SENSE OF MORALITY, BUT BECAUSE THEY MAKE OUR VERY HUMANITY SOMETHING UNDERSTANDABLE. THEY MAKE OUR HUMANITY SOMETHING FELT. http://badassdigest.com/2012/01/12/screenwriting-101-1-of-2/ HULK WAS ONCE INTRODUCED TO A SMART WAY OF KEEPING TRACK OF CHARACTER TREES BY USING BODY PARTS. YOU START AT THE BOTTOM AND GO UP, THUS "BUILDING A COMPLETE PERSON." TO WIT: A) FEET - WHAT DO THEY LOOK LIKE? WHAT ARE THE FACTS OF THEIR FAMILY HISTORY? WHERE HAVE THEY LIVED? THE FEET ARE ALL ARE FACTUAL DETAILS TO BE DRAWN ON. B) GROIN - WHAT DO THE WANT? HOW DOES THEIR SEXUALITY MANIFEST ITSELF? WHAT ARE THE OTHER BASE WANTS? GREED? APPROVAL? ESTEEM? THE GROIN ADDRESSES ALL THE THINGS ABOUT THE PERSON THAT ARE BORN OUT OF IMPULSE. C) HEART - WHAT DO THEY NEED? WHAT THINGS DO THEY SECRETLY NEED IN THEIR LIFE THAT WILL MAKE THEM A BETTER PERSON? NOTICE IT IS RATHER DIFFERENT FROM WHAT A CHARACTER "WANTS" (WHICH MAY BE MISGUIDED). A CHARACTER'S HEART IS LIKELY THE KEY TO THE ENDING CATHARSIS. D) THROAT - HOW DOES THE PERSON SOUND? NOT JUST THE LITERAL VOICE, BUT HOW DOES THE PERSON PROJECT THEMSELVES? HOW DO THEY COME OFF TO PEOPLE? WHAT IS THEIR "SURFACE VIBE" AS THEY SAY? A PERSON'S THROAT IS BASICALLY THEIR POSTURE AND ATTEMPT AT PRESENTATION. E) LEFT CHEEK - WHAT IS THEIR INTELLIGENCE? HOW DOES IT MANIFEST ITSELF? HOW DO THEY PROBLEM SOLVE? BASICALLY, THE LEFT CHEEK EXPOSES THE "LEFT BRAINED" ABILITIES. F) RIGHT CHEEK - WHAT IS THEIR IDEALISTIC / ARTISTIC CAPACITY? WHAT IS THEIR CONSCIENCE AND MORALITY? JUST LIKE BEFORE, THE RIGHT CHEEK EXPOSES "RIGHT BRAINED" ABILITIES. G) CROWN - THIS IS WHERE YOU CAN LOOK AT AT ALL THE BODY PARTS LISTED AND PIECE TOGETHER AN ACTUAL PSYCHOLOGY. YOU NOW HAVE ALL THE TOOLS AT YOUR DISPOSAL TO CREATE A REAL, COMPLEX PERSON WITH A CONSCIOUS MIND AND A SUBCONSCIOUS ID. YOU CAN START TO PIECE TOGETHER WHAT REALLY MATTERS WHEN YOU WRITE ABOUT THE CROWN. WHAT ARE THEIR DEFINING MEMORIES? WHAT IS THEIR PATHOLOGY? THE CROWN ESSENTIALLY ALLOWS YOU TO ANSWER THE QUESTION: WHO IS THIS CHARACTER? SO THAT'S A CHARACTER TREE. YOU START FACTUAL, THEN GET EMOTIONAL, THEN IDEOLOGICAL, AND THEN BUILD INTO AN ACTUAL CHARACTER PSYCHOLOGY. IT IS A GREAT WAY TO BUILD FULLY TEXTURED PEOPLE WITH WHOLE LIVES ONTO THEMSELVES. BETTER YET, CHARACTER TREES WORK SO WELL IN MAKING ALL YOUR CHARACTERS TRULY DIFFERENT FROM ONE ANOTHER.

i would love to be a person who gets stuff "as told" to. [karenball: my job is to write, his if i am to be published.

wow. "take shelter" (2011)

Curtis steps back from them. They watch him, their backs to the doors. He flinches and covers his mouth. CURTIS (CONT’D) I’m sorry. Baby, there’s no storm outside. CURTIS I’m sorry. Samantha walks over to him. SAMANTHA Curtis. I wouldn’t lie to you. We love you very much. Please open the door. Curtis is on the verge of tears. He slowly reaches into his jeans pocket. He removes the keys. He holds them out to Samantha. CURTIS I’m sorry. I can’t. Samantha looks at the keys, then at Curtis. Tears shake from his trembling face. SAMANTHA I love you, but if I open the door, then nothin’s gonna change. You’ll see that everything’s fine, but nothing will change. Please. This is what it means to stay with us. This is something you have to do.

time for bed, but i cant stop tearing at this little party- especially CAIN celebrating his fav catcher @busterposey :) http://sanfrancisco.giants.mlb.com/mlb/gameday/index.jsp?gid=2012_10_11_sfnmlb_cinmlb_1&highlight_content_id=25383863&c_id=sf

http://brokelyn.com/ http://www.theeastsiderla.com/ https://www.padmapper.com/ http://projects.latimes.com/farmers-markets/

aww, "call the midwife" 102

Still, Mary’s perspective doesn’t click into place until Jenny tells a priest, with the confidence of a comfortable upbringing, that she knows poverty because she works in a poor neighborhood. Father Jones immediately responds, “Nurse, I don’t think you do. Poverty isn’t bad housing, dirty clothing, families of 10. It’s never having been loved or even respected. Not knowing the difference between love and abuse. A kiss that wasn’t a down payment on a blow.” http://www.avclub.com/articles/the-brown-incident,85988/

fringe 112

how come no one told me there's a pacey and jen's grandma scene?? [also, i ate an entire pomegranate wearing my hpu hoodie. it is white and still is!]

the hour 105

“Because you’re tenacious. Because you care more about the truth than you do about your own safety. Because if I was scared for my life, I would run to you, and trust that you would know the answer. Because there is no one else like you, Freddie.” // my father always said a hero is a man who is too scared to run away. // see where your limits are, like the rest of us do.

the perfect person is going to be the one that makes you deal with everything that's messed up about you. -judd apatow 9/11/12 (fitzdog radio)

i want more from my life than to "not fall away."

best comment: olivececile I loved Nolan asking how many guest rooms she has. Her house is roughly the size of the Louvre, I think there's room. Her mother is probably still living there and they've just never run into each other. 10/01/2012 09:51 AM 42 LIKES http://www.avclub.com/articles/destiny,85342/#comment-667660785

i just made the fluffiest thai jasmine rice. ooh ugh slipped on 7pm thing, but... furikake and three bowls spoke to my soul.

writing a new kind of thing every day, just because i haven't before. wow

rust is my enemy.