// ' * , ` ' . __________ almost PARADISE

Sunday, August 31, 2008

denise spencer on college

hm it's so true.

Between Michael's obvious anxiety and my friend's gentle warning, I was more determined than ever to keep it together. Besides, how could I break down in front of my 15-year-old son? I knew Clay would have the hardest time of all with Noel's leaving. She has been both his sister and his best friend. I had to be tough so Clay could maintain his manly facade. It was my duty as a mom.

And I succeeded. With the exception of one gulp and sniff as I hugged Noel goodbye, I looked happy. I was happy. She had spent 18 years getting ready for this moment. Even my sniffling wasn't due to sadness. What I whispered in her ear were the words, "We're so proud of you!" It was time to set her free.

Clay's headphones and somnolence gave Michael and me ample time to talk on the way home. I began to notice a pattern to our conversation. We kept reassuring ourselves that this was a good thing. Kids are supposed to grow up and leave home, right? We wouldn't want Noel to hang around forever . . . would we? An uncomfortable feeling began to grow inside me, and by the time we got home I knew what I had to do.

I had to grieve. Yes, I was happy for her. Yes, it was time for Noel to spread her wings and take to the air. But my friend was right. My time had come.

And so I sat here, in Noel's room---on the floor next to her bed with a handful of tissues, to be exact. And the tears came. For I had to admit what I had known all along: things will never be the same again. Never again will she live in this house full-time. Never again will we sit down each evening around the dinner table and swap stories about our adventures of the day. She will be a visitor from now on, and she will be forever leaving.

Still, the tears mingled with a curious kind of joy. Why? Because I remembered something else I had known all along: I had been preparing for this moment since Noel was two days old.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

andrew osenga, "swing wide the glimmering gates"

I caught myself looking in the mirror
Wishing I was someone else
I was born, with a bleeding heart
And veins of loneliness

I know it,
I’ve seen it,
I’ve held it in my arms
But love can’t seem to break me down

I’ve pleaded,
I’ve begged,
I’ve bloodied my eyes, just to feel it
To believe it will stick around (oh whoa)

Swing wide the glimmering gates
Swing wide the glimmering gates

I told myself
the habits and secrets
were just to get me through
To get me through the nights

but I got lost in a world of angles
in city and greys and lies

And I feel it,
I taste it
the longing to be free
(Oh) The joy of believing like a child

So you,
You then listening
Will you send up a prayer for me?
To help me find the light

Swing wide the glimmering gates
Leave your pride and pain
Swing wide the glimmering gates
And be innocent again
Innocent Again

Swing wide the glimmering gates

One day I believe
I will open up my eyes
Just to see
The good work that was begun

And I’ll be
The only things
I’ve ever wanted to be
And I’ll know that I belong

Swing wide the glimmering gates
Leave your pride and pain
Swing wide the glimmering gates
And be innocent again
Innocent again
Be innocent again
Swing wide the glimmering gates
Leave your pride and pain (Swing Wide)
Swing wide the glimmering gates
And be innocent again (innocent, innocent again)
Swing wide the glimmering gates

Swing wide the glimmering gates

Friday, August 29, 2008

nice.

"other cultures are not failed attempts at being you."

Thursday, August 28, 2008

starfield, "unashamed."

I have not much
To offer You
Not near what You deserve
But still I come
Because Your cross
Has placed in me my worth

Oh, Christ my King
Of sympathy
Whose wounds secure my peace
Your grace extends
To call me friend
Your mercy sets me free

And I know I'm weak
I know I'm unworthy
To call upon Your name
But because of grace
Because of Your mercy
I stand here unashamed

I can't explain
This kind of love
I'm humbled and amazed
That You'd come down
From heavens heights
And greet me face to face

Here I am at Your feet
In my brokenness complete

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

am i really doing this?

switchfoot, "the economy of mercy"


There's just two ways to lose yourself in this life
And neither way is safe
In my dreams I see visions of the future
But today we have today
And where will I find You?

In the economy of mercy
I am a poor and begging man
In the currency of grace
Is where my song begins
In the colors of Your goodness
In the scars that mark your skin
In the currency of grace
Is where my song begins

These carbon shells
These fragile dusty frames
House canvases of souls
We are bruised and broken masterpieces
But we did not paint ourselves

And where will I find You?


Where was I when the world was made?
Where was I?

I'm lost without You here
Yes, I'm lost without You near me
I'm lost without You here
You knew my name when the world was made





... i think i am.

Monday, August 18, 2008

burn notice, "scatter point"

24:46
(after business as usual)

sam: so mikey, uh, you never asked me about my date
michael: oh. how'd your date go
sam: not real good.
michael: i'm sorry to hear that
sam: she popped the question, buddy
michael: the... marriage question?
sam: yeah, you know it
michael: and you said...?
sam: i didnt, that's part of the problem she's freaking out right now waiting for an answer
michael: so give her one.
sam: well i'd love to mike, but, uh - there's some issues here.
michael: do you love her?
sam (blows out breath): she could be the one...
michael: then say yes.
sam: but it's complicated
michael: then say no.

sam (shaking head): youre a true friend mikey.


HAHAHA

Sunday, August 17, 2008

yay phelps!!

"If he were his own country, Phelps would rank third in the overall gold medal standings here, ahead of Russia."

hahahah

Thursday, August 14, 2008

leeland - tears of the saints

There are many prodigal sons
On our city streets they run
Searching for shelter
There are homes broken down
People's hopes have fallen to the ground
From failures.

This is an emergency!

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
We're crying for them come back home
And all Your children stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home.

There are schools full of hatred
Even churches have forsaken
Love and mercy!
May we see this generation
In its state of desperation
For Your glory.

This is an emergency!

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
We're crying for them come back home
And all Your children stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home.

Sinner, reach out your hands
Children, in Christ you stand
And sinner, reach out your hands!
And children, in Christ you stand!

There are tears from the saints
For the lost and unsaved
We're crying for them come back home
We're crying for them come back home
And all Your children stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home.

And all Your children will stretch out their hands
And pick up the crippled man
Father, we will lead them home
Father, we will lead them home.

Monday, August 11, 2008

starfield - i will go!

To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

[Chorus:]
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, To the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within your hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privilege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing You've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

[Chorus]

I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you
[Repeat 3x]

[Chorus]

Send me! [4x]

Friday, August 08, 2008

on prophecy

Spiritual Gifts: Prophecy
Daniel Borchers
September 1, 2001
Introduction
Good afternoon, brethren. Thank you, Tom Hardesty, for your lovely party invitation. I’ll be there. If anyone here did not get an invitation, see Tom. He said that everyone is invited.

Today, I’ll be speaking about the gift of prophecy.

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But first, let me direct your attention to the insert in your bulletin. This flier highlights some of the key
points of today’s topic. At the bottom you will note a set of contrasting characteristics which you can
examine later. Any spiritual gift can be misused and the gift of prophecy is no exception. When used in
the Spirit, a set of godly qualities is exhibited, but when used in the flesh, an opposite set of worldly ways
is revealed. The key to using any spiritual gift is to stay close to God and constantly seek His will.
Prophet – Truth
There are many definitions for each of the spiritual gifts we are covering. The definition in today’s
bulletin reads: “This is the ability to recognize sinful behavior and a driving compulsion to confront
individuals, groups and/or cultures.” The definition in the Spiritual Gift Analysis book says, “The gift of
prophecy is the ability to communicate God’s Word with power, conviction, and clarity, and to apply it to
the specific situation of the hearers.” For the purpose of today’s talk, prophecy refers to speaking the
truth, especially regarding right and wrong.
Here’s a sound-bite description of the prophet: The prophet boldly speaks the truth in love by faith for
freedom. The prophet’s words are linked with faith and based on truth – the scriptural authority of God.
The apostle Paul begins his list of spiritual gifts in Romans 12 with prophecy and ends it with mercy.
First and foremost, we need the truth, but all that we do must be rooted and grounded in love and
forgiveness.
Let’s begin with Jesus as our model. Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. His Word is Truth. Our
fellowship has been blessed in having a yearning desire for truth – to know it and to live it.
That is the heart of the prophet. The prophet has a passion for the truth. He has a passion for the truth
because God loves truth and God is truth and because the prophet knows that the truth is a prerequisite to
freedom.
The truth sets us free.
Perhaps that is why Paul encourages the use of prophecy – because the voice of the prophet can benefit
the body of Christ and help people find true freedom in Christ. Notice what Paul says:
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Corinthians 14:1,3 Pursue love, and desire spiritual gifts, but especially that you may prophesy. …
But he who prophesies speaks edification and exhortation and comfort to men.
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Edification, exhortation and comfort all require an understanding of the truth.
Edification would include the truth of God’s greatness, our utter helplessness without Him, and that we
are more than conquerors with Him.
Exhortation to know God, love Him and develop an ever-deeper relationship with Him.
Comfort to know that God does love us, that He calls us His children, and that He can be counted on in
every circumstance. Indeed, that the Ruler of the universe will literally move heaven and earth to come to
our aid. What an awesome God!
I’m prejudiced. I love the song we just sang – “How Great Thou Art.” It moves me, and for me, that is the
song of the prophet. Whenever there is a thunderstorm I am at peace because of the message of this song.
It speaks to what I just said: the Ruler of the universe will literally move heaven and earth to come to our
aid.
Prophet – Faith
Paul makes an interesting statement in his letter to the Romans. He writes:
Romans 12:6
if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith.
Here Paul links prophecy with faith. The gift of prophecy is closely connected to faith. The prophet
speaks out boldly. Why? Because he sees the truth, he knows it’s the truth, and he believes that God means
what He says. So, the prophet has faith in God and in God’s Word. In that faith, the prophet speaks boldly
and clearly.
Sometimes that boldness and clarity of expression can be misinterpreted as a lack of compassion or
insensitivity. But, as author Charles Stanley said, the prophet is interested in the origin and the destination
– not the trip. He sees the problem and he knows the solution and he wants to help others get from where
they are to where God wants them to be.
Another aspect which can cause discomfort over the prophet’s message is that the sword of truth is sharp
– cutting to the core of one’s conscience. People generally don’t like correction or dealing with issues of
the heart.
Prophetic Examples
Peter is the apostolic example of a prophet. On the day of Pentecost, it was Peter who preached the truth
of the gospel. Later, before the Sanhedrin, Peter audaciously charged those who had the power of life and
death with the murder of the Son of God.
The Old Testament prophets were just as bold because they heard the voice of God tell them the truth.
They heard and then spoke the truth God had given them. Often the prophet was the voice of doom – but
he pointed to the path to redemption.
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The Prophet Today
In like manner today, the prophet is perceptive to the truth and receptive to the prompting of the Holy
Spirit. This affinity for truth enables the prophet to perceive insincerity and to identify hypocrisy. As
such, the prophet is generally a good judge of character, understands the motivation of people, and is able
to discern the moral implications of situations.
The prophet sees God’s truth and its liberating power in people’s lives. He sees the big picture. He
recognizes the existence and consequences of sin and evil and he wants to help people go in the right
direction.
The prophet heeds his conscience and takes God at His word. So the prophet will speak plainly with
straight talk as he speaks the truth. He will say what is right and what is wrong, citing Scripture as his
authority. He will say, “This is the way, walk in it.”
Though he may appear to give simple solutions to complex problems, those solutions actually work
because they are based on the Word of God. He believes God, he believes that “we can do all things
through Christ Jesus who strengthens us,” and he believes that “Nothing is impossible with God.”
Indeed, the prophet knows God’s miracles are but a prayer away and that nothing can stay the hand of
God in the lives of His people.
The prophet’s heart has been convicted of the truth and he wants to share that truth with others. The
prophet is also concerned with the correct application of biblical principles. Equally important, he is
concerned about God’s reputation and will correct those who try to impugn God or limit His
unfathomable greatness.
Self-examination and repentance are a regular part of the prophet’s life, as is a desire to live a holy life.
Prophets have a willingness to experience brokenness in order to help others who are broken and in need
of God’s redemption and healing. They understand that brokenness is part of the process of redemption
and of spiritual growth.
It’s interesting that in Romans chapter 12, Paul lists the gifts, beginning with prophecy and ending with
mercy. The very next verse returns to the prophet, saying “Let love be without hypocrisy. Abhor what is
evil. Cling to what is good.”
That would be an appropriate slogan or bumper sticker for a prophet.
Conclusion
So, in conclusion, remember that out of love for God, for God’s Word and for God’s people, the prophet
boldly proclaims the truth of God in faith for freedom. The prophet takes God’s Word as gospel truth,
takes God at His word, and trusts that God will fulfill His word.
The prophet knows that there is no sin God cannot forgive, no wound God cannot heal, no soul God
cannot save, no situation God cannot master. And the good news is that we can trust God in all things
through eternity.
“If God is for us, who can be against us?”

Thursday, August 07, 2008

even now, being spoken to :)

"yeah, well, sometimes i just have to be right, so i'll say whatever i have to, with complete disregard for the other person's feelings."

"that's a pretty unlikable trait to be that aware of."

- "back to you" (2007, fox) - business or pleasure.



it was even kind of a non sequiter! i must take this to heart.

Friday, August 01, 2008

o love that wilt not let me go

O Love that wilt not let me go,
I rest my weary soul in thee;
I give thee back the life I owe,
that in thine ocean depths its flow
may richer, fuller be.

O Light that followest all my way,
I yield my flickering torch to thee;
my heart restores its borrowed ray,
that in thy sunshine’s blaze its day
may brighter, fairer be.

O Joy that seekest me through pain,
I cannot close my heart to thee;
I trace the rainbow through the rain,
and feel the promise is not vain,
that morn shall tearless be.

O Cross that liftest up my head,
I dare not ask to fly from thee;
I lay in dust life’s glory dead,
and from the ground there blossoms red
life that shall endless be


george matheson, 1882