https://vimeo.com/johnsmovies

work is prayer, girl. better if you don't stop.

https://www.wired.com/story/halt-and-catch-fire-finale-message/

https://uproxx.com/sepinwall/halt-and-catch-fire-recap-goodwill-review/ https://uproxx.com/sepinwall/halt-and-catch-fire-recap-who-needs-a-guy-gordon-review/ https://www.vulture.com/2017/09/halt-and-catch-fire-recap-season-4-episode-7.html

Halt and Catch Fire gives Gordon a gift at the end of his life. Gordon’s tragedy and his happiness have always come out of the same fundamental issue: He can see far into the horizon, but never quite far enough. He sees personal computing, but can’t imagine enough innovation to actually change the future. He sees the promise of something like Mutiny, but it’s Donna’s project. He dreams up this program to help Mutiny grow, but cannot implement its far bigger potential. He even saw internet in the home, and he understood Joe’s vision of the browser, but he’s always been one click away from the top of the heap — the company being bought, not the company doing the buying. It’s a tragic position, but it’s also a relief. For a long time now, he’s been the most stable. He’s been the rock. But at the end, Gordon sees it. He hears about the user data from Rover, and he understands the potential for a website that’s not about directing people elsewhere, but about being “sticky.” He has an intuitive understanding of how important it’ll be to become a hub, a community, a gathering place. He has the insight to steer Comet in a direction that could be really revolutionary for the young web, and he has exactly the right combination of cajoling, persuasion, enthusiasm, and chill to communicate the idea to Joe. He gets the word “re-launch” up on the whiteboard... I am immeasurably sad that Gordon is gone. Over the course of the series, he’s transformed from a thoughtless, selfish partner and an anxious co-worker to someone vastly more introspective, caring, and supportive. Donna and Joe worry about whether they can change, whether they’ve changed too much, whether change is a good thing. Meanwhile, Gordon has been there in the background, proof positive of how far a person can come, and how growth and success don’t have to be big and flashy. The show’s other three main players are still striving for a way to really make it, but all the while, Gordon was figuring out how to be happy. I’m so sad he’s gone, but I’m so thankful that before he went, he’d figured out how to cook, and to have a relationship with a woman who fit him, and to love his daughters, and to be happy with himself. We should all be so lucky.

https://www.avclub.com/in-its-glowing-two-part-finale-everyone-on-halt-and-ca-1819472740

What comes next. That’s always been at the heart of Halt And Catch Fire’s narrative as the show’s characters, having tied their ambitions to the inexorable and accelerating rocket car of computer technology, must constantly seek the next, biggest thing. We’ve seen our conception of each character’s dreams develop as they have for the characters themselves. Gordon’s hands-on tinkering was an expression of his desire to prove himself worthy, a clunky, halting progression through idealistic projects whose half-realized natures were always in need of sweaty patch-jobs. Donna, as much of a tinkerer and dreamer as her onetime husband, carried the added pressures and conflicts of a woman in a male world trying to manage her own expectations (and those of her fragile husband) while never being satisfied with being anyone’s side-player. Cameron the lost, rebellious teen grown to punk rock genius, sought to use her prodigious talents and imagination to craft whole virtual worlds for her to, finally, find a place in. And Joe MacMillan, introduced as a manipulative cypher, smooth-talking his way toward goals known only to him (a serious dramatic misjudgement that nearly sun the show before it was bailed out by one of the most successful retoolings in TV history), improbably became a human being. Echoing his first, shark-sleek pitch to the restless Gordon that they ape the IBM BIOS in order to beat the big boys at their own game, Joe pitches his vision again to the Comet team in a different context. “Computers aren’t the thing. They’re the thing that gets us to the thing.”

it was never about where it ended up. it was about how it felt. when i saw it, i knew how it would feel to build something with you.

405 most of us don't get to know what's next / feels like shit thrown at us welcome to the future, joe macmillan. i can't speak for everyone, but i'm sure glad to have you here. (end 25:51)

the first 2,000 miles are easy. the last 20 feet is hard

https://www.vanityfair.com/hollywood/2020/12/bring-ted-lasso-energy-into-your-life

If nothing else, Ted Lasso the guy, as well as Ted Lasso the show, never expect or require women to carry and process the emotional baggage of men who refuse to clean up their own messes. Sudeikis does terrific work as Ted, especially in scenes in which we see the coach’s flaws and fears. Ted snaps at people on occasion, and his jaunt to the UK is a way to avoid some hard truths. He can use his sunny demeanor the way that Rebecca uses her power wardrobe: to deflect anything messy, complicated or challenging. But he wants to be better. He allows others to change him, and he pays attention when he realizes he screwed up. The noticing he’s so good at spreads throughout the club; more and more people start to figure out how they might be able to evolve—maybe. If they really try. At one point in the season, a male character says, “I’m a grown man, I’m not a baby child.” In context, it’s a funny line; out of context, it could serve as the show’s mission statement. Ted finds ways to reach the Richmond players, fans and staffers who are angry, who are lonely, who need to face the consequences of their arrogant or abusive tendencies. He draws out junior staffer Nate (Nick Mohammed) and bolsters his confidence in a dozen ways, and it’s not long before the entire club benefits from Nate the Great’s input. We’ve seen plenty of examples in recent years of the wrong kind of tenacity and the worst kinds of confrontation. Ted does not, to use therapy jargon, model that kind of behavior. Displaying humane persistence and quiet creativity, he figures out how to motivate each person, even the baby men—and when that doesn’t work, he gently but firmly imposes consequences on them.

https://highline.huffingtonpost.com/articles/en/love-in-the-age-of-big-data/

I met my boyfriend in 2009 at a dinner party I'd thrown to impress somebody else. He came in late, beautiful in his crisp work clothes. The chemistry was immediate. Over a series of dates, I learned he was sweet and giving, with strong ethics and a fascinating mind. We lived on separate sides of the country where we resided at the time, and we had heady months of meeting in romantic towns in the middle, eating figs and cherries we bought straight off of farms, learning about ourselves as we were reflected in each other. Much of the time, I think we made each other feel more capable, more hopeful for the future. But there were also times when we made each other feel more confused than we'd ever been in our lives. The desire to love each other was there, and yet it was with exasperation that we recognized we each sometimes didn't feel loved. What were we doing wrong? It didn’t seem clear.

https://holapapi.substack.com/p/does-the-one-exist

I was right, in a way. I never met another Thomas. And you know? I never will. I often see him in bits and pieces: his eyes here, his smile there, his weird laugh, his nasty nail-biting habit, always in other people. But none of them are him, of course. And the thing is, Soulmate, that’s completely fine. Because I know that I’m lucky for having experienced what I did with him, and I’m lucky to still have a lot left to experience with other people. I have more true loves to hold, both platonic and romantic.

https://allpoetry.com/What-It-Is-(English-transaltion-of-Was-es-ist)

british dance bands of

https://www.vox.com/22108136/hobbies-crafts-diy-knitting-embroidery-clay-how-to

https://www.espn.com/racing/nascar/story/_/id/29364669/nascar-hollywood-were-never-same-days-thunder