https://www.ebay.com/itm/NEW-OEM-2012-2013-2014-2015-APPLE-15-MacBook-Pro-Magsafe-2-85W-Charger-A1424/163403670366

https://twitter.com/Lexialex/status/1098733104158564352

a million little things!

https://tootall.bandcamp.com/album/the-hidden-mixtape

https://grace.substack.com/p/things-i-learned-from-my-first-dog

http://future-sf.com/non-fiction/a-conversation-with-javier-grillo-marxuach-jose-molina/?fbclid=IwAR3g7VboOJ-jwl5qGRlpEa9TBfF8mxNPF21ljX8LLTU4lOQVVEfn07lIo80

JAVI: For me, it’s about living long enough, and keeping your head above water long enough, till you have enough credits, enough scripts, enough mastery, that you can say, “They can tell me that I can’t write their show, but they can’t tell me I can’t write.” And I feel that it’s sort of a pivotal moment in every working writer’s life, where you stop being afraid that you might be an imposter. You realize two things—one: a TV show is not a place to find whatever familial bonds you were denied as a child. Two: The people who run the TV shows that you loved, and the people who run the TV shows that you work on—whatever the press may be, are not really the geniuses you thought they were. They would not have gotten where they did, if it wasn’t for people like you beneath them doing good, solid work. And once you demystify this, that this person isn’t a genius, but he or she is very good, and once you realize there are no geniuses—it’s just whoever has been anointed as the situational genius, who is going to be right because they’re the boss… If you can stick around long enough to get to those epiphanies, you’ll probably survive the rest of your career. ... JAVI: A good survival strategy is to not compete. The show that’s going to hire you, is the show that’s going to hire you and is also the show that’s going to hire you, y’know? All you can control is whether or not your script sample is good. Do you give a good meeting? Are you charming and lovely in the room? And put a good case that people want to hang out with you for ten hours a day. You can’t compete with anyone else, because you don’t know what they’re doing every day in a meeting with the EP’s. All you can do is bring your best game. Look, staffing on shows is like being in relationships, the alchemy of who works out in a staff is so ethereal, because it’s about whether or not you can jive with those other creatives in the writer’s room.

tiny dancer pre-nadia

TODAY I SUBMITTED TO

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fab89eIgswc - the wrong guy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZ4jmPSceYk - timer https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1FQTxpAQ4Q - drug war https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOgrh1E3LNM - claudine https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L4Vo9dgy6Fg - chop shop https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s24RlHp8gj4 - l'eclisse https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U089cG2BqR8 - yi yi https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X87UgJamqB0 - a prophet https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zgh5Y3GfEE - the net https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/#!content/569465/Exhibition https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/details/My-Beautiful-Laundrette/140497 https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/#!content/6439/Lantana https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/#!content/952620/Il-Mare https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EhgSui0V_qY - chan is missing https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hK3f6-5fdMw - mississippi masala http://www.pbs.org/wnet/nature/supercats-about/16451/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c3YAiDW97kA - the strange little cat https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/#!content/182160/The-Conversation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L3wZhA5s3kI - hitman hart: wrestling with shadows https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XFGkZblCgmY - the stepford wives (1975) https://www.vudu.com/content/movies/#!content/47738/Birth

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meatballs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFD2j_GqeN0

it was never a fight with you, it was a fight inside of me and i liked having it with you. -craig mazin, all about family (348) (end 38:54)

https://thecreativeindependent.com/wisdom/thor-harris-on-how-to-stay-healthy/#1 https://blog.usejournal.com/too-much-advice-da60460364b4 https://blogs.creativecow.net/blog/14822/a-conversation-with-hbos-asian-american-visionaries-director-fengi-fiona-roan

https://longreads.com/2018/02/08/vanishing-as-a-way-to-reclaim-your-life/

I didn’t do a cost and benefit analysis. In fact, I hadn’t thought much about marriage at all because marrying P.J. hadn’t felt like a choice. He was a fact of life now. Questioning his place in it seemed as worthwhile as pondering whether I should keep my arms and legs. But I was squeamish about the wedding and skeptical of its meticulous choreography. In Sartre’s Being and Nothingness, there is a section on “bad faith” — behaving without sincerity, lying to oneself. Sartre describes a café scene in which a waiter is serving his customers: “His movement is quick and forward, a little too precise, a little too rapid. He comes toward the patrons with a step a little too quick. He bends forward a little too eagerly…he is playing at being a waiter in a café.” The waiter, as Sartre describes him, is imprisoned in his performance, relegating himself to the singular role that society allows him, rather than allowing himself the freedom of a more honest manner of being. What troubled me most about the concept of bad faith was not that we might lie to others, but that we might lie to ourselves. Self-deception is degrading. You wish you could have just a smidge more integrity. Your falseness lingers in the air and follows you through the day. In the carefully scripted wedding rituals, I detected bad faith. I felt less like a bride and more like a person pretending to be a bride, the way a little girl might process through her living room with a pillowcase draped over her head toward some imaginary groom. I refused to take engagement photos because who would ever believe that we were spontaneously bounding through a field at sunset holding hands? Or making out in front of a brick wall? Who was this photo for? It couldn’t be for us because anytime we looked at it we would know all the work that went into it: a long afternoon spent smiling to the point of jaw exhaustion.

I told myself that it didn’t matter if I was ambivalent about the wedding because I wasn’t ambivalent about P.J. And though I didn’t want to admit it, I craved the security of marriage. A handsome, kind man had agreed to tie his life to mine, to mix his shoes in with mine, to grocery shop with me, to list my name on his emergency contact forms forever. It was a vote of confidence in me and in my vision of how to live. The comfort that this knowledge provided released me from the pressure to find other forms of stability. I started taking on more ambitious writing projects because if they didn’t work out I would still have P.J. I could live anywhere in the world because P.J. would be there. We had very little money, but being broke with someone else is far preferable to being broke alone. Surely between the two of us we would figure out how to make enough money to scrape by. I did not view my impending marriage as a constraint. I told myself that it was a means of escape from the constraints of the rest of the world.

https://complicationsensue.blogspot.com/2019/02/fuzzy-dialog.html

https://freeform.go.com/shows/the-bold-type https://abc.go.com/shows/my-so-called-life/episode-guide http://www.cc.com/episodes/hkmocz/detroiters-pilot-season-1-ep-101 https://vimeo.com/user30687220 https://www.amazon.com/Water/dp/B000UU2YKE/

i know it's midweek but everyone start a poll that's two truths and a lie about yourselves so we can start this sleepover already

i talk to you as i talk to my own soul.

“I talk to you as I talk to my own soul," he said, turning me to face him. He reached up and cupped my cheek, fingers light on my temple. "And Sassenach," he whispered, "Your face is my heart.”

https://www.theringer.com/tv/2019/2/2/18206883/leslye-headland-russian-doll-bachelorette

The backbone of her work isn’t a penchant for dark comedy or a willingness to showcase unlikable characters; it’s a fixation on behavioral grooves, on people who are stuck in their own lives. Sleeping With Other People features her cuddliest characters, but they still find each other in a sex and love addiction meeting, and must overcome compulsions to return to relationships and sexual habits that harm them. In Bachelorette, Fisher’s dim-bulb Katie slowly morphs from comic relief into a harrowing depiction of substance use and despair. “I’m telling the same story over and over again, just the worst night ever,” Headland said. “I think it was Truffaut who said that every filmmaker makes one film, breaks it apart, and makes the same film again. … I think I’m too young to figure out what that film is, but I do feel I keep telling the same story.”

http://www.espn.com/mlb/story/_/id/25893836/inside-37-year-old-pitcher-luke-hagerty-improbable-comeback-story

The yips are an exercise in loneliness. Nobody is quite sure what to do, what to say.

It covered five categories: adventure mindset, connect, authentic, forward focused and courage. On almost every reply, Hagerty was above average compared to the elite athletes Crews surveys. In only two segments were his answers problematic: negative thoughts and courage. This, Crews says, is typical of athletes with the yips. It is almost autoimmune, the way they forever lurk, ready to strike at the most inopportune moment. They manifest themselves physically. They poison psychologically. Crews asked Hagerty to go to an archery range that month. The idea was to get Hagerty away from his main sport and into an unfamiliar situation, where he doesn't have coping strategies. Everything, Crews says, shows up. When she noticed he was not shooting for the 10-point bull's-eye target, she asked how often Hagerty adopts his game persona. He stopped to think. That's what was missing. The yips had taken his ability to throw a baseball and his career the first time around. They were not going to kill this chance, too. They had infiltrated deep into Hagerty's mind, stealing another fundamental element -- his unrelenting competitiveness, the sort that lived inside his lab but was needed to leave it -- and torpedoing it. "He needed to go through it," Bretta says. "He needed to take ownership of it, carry it around on his shoulder and beat it up every day. He had to understand it. He had to dissect it and figure it out. That was important to him. It was important to him to get to this step." This step was the biggest. It was what Austin Davis and every kid who walked through X2's doors said at one point or another when they saw Hagerty light up a radar gun. Try. Just try. Hold a workout. There were always excuses. There always would be. "He's waiting for things to fall into place," Crews says. "He's got his business going. I said you just have to make a decision, and if you're going to go, you take steps to get the business covered, your family covered, everything so he can go when he makes it."

http://insidesurvivor.com/survivor-30-ghosts-the-returnee-season-that-almost-happened-28061

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1ImoRy9CyHQ0c0ajHbYcA1rqoWOQdCsJq1iEcX8o9E-w/edit?fbclid=IwAR2g70IkytD76EZzrQY9ZjGalTFyJA4yMnEju5iNkeoeqeYrriisg0NgVBs#gid=1307760481 https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/11qjaWDN6N-o5U37q89FaP3AouBDQ6C4ZIfoGPfpSBuA/edit?usp=sharing&fbclid=IwAR1j6I0yggGGNg-Qyw6w7MlIGJVAg3bk2PLPRiUJz_FoE_HXK5NK7oaZN2I

https://www.netflixanimation.com/jobs