at the big kids' table today - but now everyone's disbanded

There's such a fine line between desperate-earnest and douchey for personal statements. My personal preference is to pretend I'm writing to aliens. : Today's superhuman feat: find the teeny-tiny middle ground between desperate-earnest and super douche in this personal statement. (This is the only time I'd prefer a personal fashion statement.)

i think more than anything, my mom's going to look at that (as success). (beat) do you have anything like that for you? [not even having to think] i think my mom is just proud that i'm in school and i'm using my writing gift. she believes.

: Good idea: reading stuff I've written to reassure myself this current 'speechlessness' has been overcome before. Bad idea: reading my senior thesis. hahaha! : today i thought i was the worst writer in the world, and in despair i started OCD-obsessively cleaning out my old pictures and documents. there, i reread my college stuff. HAHAHA. all is well again. (at least i made it this far.)

http://robertdavidsullivan.typepad.com/my_weblog/2012/01/top-100-sitcom-episodes-of-all-time-introduction.html

At their best, sitcom episodes work as short stories or parables. They catalogue social conventions (see Seinfeld in particular) and present “what would you do?” situations in which the characters usually, but not always, react according to their most prominent personality traits.

this george clooney interview is amazing

http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2008/04/14/080414fa_fact_parker?currentPage=all "The effort behind George Clooney’s effortless charm."

As befits a man who, at a charity auction last summer in the South of France, sold a kiss for three hundred and fifty thousand dollars, Clooney has an unusually alert sense of his sphere of influence; he is more closely guided than most by a diligent inner director. If he knows not to scream too loudly on camera, he is also an intelligent political propagandist—he can predict how he’ll sound on the six-thirty news. And he has taken the trouble to think his way into the mind of the person inching up to his restaurant table for an autograph, or the friend of a friend who has become a little dizzy in his presence. (“Your job is to find the best way for those people to hold on to their dignity,” he explained to me. “For a second, they have thrown it out. They got what they came for”—the autograph, the handshake—“but then they’re standing there feeling, God, that horrible taste in their mouth: ‘What now, how do I walk away?’ ” As Clooney described it, they have to be shown a path back to their normal selves.)

Today, O Lord, I yield myself to You. May Your will be my delight today. May You have perfect sway in me. May your love be the pattern of my living. I surrender to You my hopes, my dreams, my ambitions. Do with them what You will, when You will, as You will. I place into Your loving care my family, my friends, my future. Care for them with a care that I can never give. I release into Your hands my need to control, my craving for status, my fear of obscurity. Eradicate the evil, purify the good, and establish Your Kingdom on earth. For Jesus’ sake, Amen.

i just saw my name in credits for the first time. and i have a family here. community wide open

anais nin life shrinks and expands according to one's courage.

you guys! ricky bobby, sarah walker and zoe hart all have the same dad. #aworldimgladtolivein --- also of interest, apparently i write fast reads mostly because i don't know how to use sluglines ;) and i have a voice again. shudder in joy.

all things are spiritual. i think my view needs to not just be bigger but corrected.

'09 class blesses me by being so great. t said i can write! ta da also db on wed

wow. thune then k at e?

ooh... longer time here? rc

‎"I know now, Lord, why you utter no answer. You are yourself the answer. Before your face questions die away. What other answer would suffice? Only words, words; to be led out to battle against other words."

may to-do

milk harajuku crepe artbox - irvine spectrum gokuri + kula milk bouchon macarons peach tea shaved ice cloud place 85 beach milk tea urban outfitters

grace is when it's wednesday and your draft is not the worst thing ever written (it's the second ;) and you can breathe.

first draft of my first draft in record time! #thanksformakingmeoutline #adult

today i also finished my first bottle of vitamins. #calciumstrong also the first time i remember thinking, "this is a crappy dream. i want to wake up now."

today i graduated to the writers' couch :)